It’s like a veiled bubble encases me and I can only faintly feel and faintly see the world bustling around me. Like boulders weigh down a tarp, I feel my body weighed down by thoughts of loss and I cannot move. I just want to curl up and evaporate. Words are stilled and my voice is silent; the energy to speak is too much for my weary being. And I wallow in the fog. Crushed in my spirit, downcast in my soul, depression lurks in the doorway of my life.
Understanding is reluctantly given and patience is thin. I want to be air lifted out of this pit but there is no such quick remedy on its way. And so I sit and moan inaudible moans from within, til I am heard, “Oh Lord…help!” Motionless….emotionless I wait. Deep cries out to deep.
Then I feel it rise up like the sprout of a seed trying desperately to push the earth away and poke up out of the soil. The Holy Spirit lifts up my moans before God and my Father’s hand reaches down deep and touches my pain. The veil is lifted and I am able to open my eyes to see clearly again and I thank God; one boulder is loosed. I thank Him again, for the obvious, the plain and the simple. Another boulder and another is rolling away and I am released from the thoughts of loss and all that weighs heavy. I praise my Lord for His unfailing love for me. I am not crushed and my spirit is lifted because my God is faithful to hear my cries. I can enter. Psalm 100: 4 & 5 says this:“Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.
For the Lord is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations.”
I have found that thanksgiving and praise open the door and make the way for escaping all that depresses. I am ushered into the presence of the Lord and am again and again filled with His joy. Sight and feeling return and I feel full with the life He has blessed me with.
From the deepest of pits and the deepest of woes God is able to lift you into the deepest of relationship with Him; thanksgiving and praise follow. What my God has done for me, He is willing to do for you also.