Ever experienced the BIG BANG in your life?
You know, the explosion of events that takes you totally by surprise – the kind of thing that changes your life in an instant and threatens the comfort of everything held to the routine of daily living?
For me, it was the pronouncement in a doctor’s office that I had cancer. For you, maybe the same — or something different — an accident, a sudden death, another kind of disease…? No matter which BIG BANG changed your life in an instant, I believe we all go through similar universal stages of experience.
The first stage I experienced seemed to have 2 steps.
The kind that makes your jaw drop, renders you speechless, and causes you to drop what you are holding, or fall back against a wall, or collapse all together.
“I couldn’t even be sure if I was still breathing. In fact, I am sure I was not. I was frozen – suspended as if above all concept of time.” (Towdah p. 5)
That was my initial response. And it is a normal first reaction for all of us.
That’s a big word for – IT IS NOT FAIR!
“…heaving great spasmodic breaths, gasping for air in my voiceless cries….I was weeping and gnashing my teeth as I drooled and bit my pillowcase in the silent darkness of the night, when no one else was awake.” (Towdah p 13)
And I wailed, Why me LORD? Why Me!
I mean – really? Who ever expects to have the Big Bang explode on them! Right?
It isn’t fair. OR ….is it?
What is fair anyway?
Yes, shock and indignation are quite normal human responses because we are forgetful. We forget that we are not in control; God is. We live our lives planning the next day and the next day to be as we want, assuming nothing will go awry, prideful because we believe we are in charge. That is why we are caught unaware when the Big Bang explodes in our face. Yes, we forget that God is bigger than any Bang – big or small; that God is in charge. He knows all and still loves us; He always has.
Friend, are you experiencing shock or indignation, crying out that it is not fair in reaction to something in your life right now?
Take comfort and know, that Jesus loves you right now and He will keep loving you right through this difficulty.
I have been there.
Follow me to my next post and I will answer that question, “What is fair anyway?”